ultranos: souji with his head stuck inside a tv (tv is eating my brain)
1) Got around to playing the Extended Cut on Mass Effect 3. You know how last time I did this, I had this knot in my stomach for about 5 hours and barely avoided crying? This time, it took me 3.5 hours (hours of multiplayer: really useful for getting fast at combat) and I completely lost it at a certain point. I did my original choice, felt completely validated, and yes, I knew it would end this way. Bioware did a fantastic job, and I could probably write an elaborate meta essay on it.

But oh, my poor shattered heart.

2) neboat started watching Warehouse 13 yesterday. So that meant I spent today catching the tail end of s1 and we made it halfway through s2. I could have done something else, but inertia and the heat made it too difficult to think about. :) It also helped distract me from the fact that the dining room table is currently covered in Legos that are not mine. I'm trying very hard to be good.

3) Started reading Spin State yesterday. It's pretty good so far. Oddly, it's pinging less Mass Effect, which is what my brain is telling me is what sci-fi is right now, and more my own Oathkeepers-'verse.

4) Once, just once, I'd like to have a story idea that doesn't morph into a novel. It's really frustrating when all I want to do is be able to finish one. (The current one is a beast, and if it ends up being less than 100K words, I am going to be shocked.)
ultranos: cam reaching for a sword, with text "guys, you DID check for traps, right?" (TRAP!)
1. I was browsing Tumblr awhile ago and came across a Bioware Confession that said that the poster would wish to cast the actress who played Maria Hill in The Avengers as Commander Shepard in a theoretical live-action film. I really can't unsee it now.

2. Seeding a Pandora station with Two Steps from Hell, Florence + the Machine, and Matthew Good (Band) really confuses the genome.

3. I have officially given up any and all pretense of actually being in control of writing this fic. It is going to be infinity words long because Commander Mouthy has Opinions. Christ, I'm going to need to go Make Friends or something to find a beta for this eventually. Assuming I can actually weave this narrative.

3a. Not that I really care if anyone other than me is willing to read it. I'm not just turning left here, I've changed phases and am throwing around complex vectors.

3b. "Fanon conventions, what fanon conventions?" This is me, ignoring, ignorant, or blatantly throwing out fanon Because I Can.

3c. Again, goddamn you and your Take A Third Option tendencies. There wasn't supposed to be a Third Option! Although you did jack the Epic level past 11.

4. Finally built a Lego set I've had around for about 3 years. I never realized safety orange and black were Bad Guy colors. Now the only set I have left to build is the space police one with the criminals looking like Ood, only more Cthulhu-y.

5. I suddenly have the oddest craving for scones.
ultranos: red stickman on fire (the burning!)
People really, really need to stop making me think about impossible or highly disparate crossovers. Because I inevitably start thinking just how it could possibly work, and that way lies madness. Which, under certain circumstances, means I make note of the sign and the border and keep on going right over it at 150km/h.

In related news, I seem to be writing a possibly workable Dragon Age: Origins/Mass Effect crossover. No, I don't know either. In fact, the file name contains the phrase "oh my god, what is this I don't even".

Well, at least I'll have something to poke at on the train tomorrow.
ultranos: kino and hermes on a coffee break (i need a coffee break)
1) Part of me feels very guilty for having the AC already going, because it really isn't that hot, but it's for the filter. Because the trees are still trying to kill me, and we've had a lot of rain. On the upside, though, so far it seems to be working (along with "drugging myself with Benedryl before bed on bad nights") and I haven't had a night yet where I only get 3 hours of sleep due to uncontrollable coughing. Ah, spring, you do try your damnedest to murder me every year.

2) I've been staring at LEGOs lately, in part because I realized I had two unconstructed sets just sitting in my closet and because I've had that construction itch again. When I found this from Ichiban Toys, I really could not resist it. (Even the Serenity model could not sway me.) But that hasn't soothed the itch, and when I stumbled upon this model of the SSV Normandy SR-2, complete with LEGO Digital Designer files so I could build it in Alliance colors myself...I'm hopeless. So now I've got a list of parts in an .xls, and I'm scouring BrickLink for parts and oh god, I'm actually going to do this. My latest Bad Idea. I have no idea where I'd even put the damn thing, and I know I'd end up having to take over the dining room table to build it. (The guys have noted that, considering it's LEGO, they really can't say a damn thing against me doing it. They're just as bad.)

Of course this leads to the Auxiliary Bad Idea: appropriate custom minifigs. I blame the fact that BrickArms and BrickForge exist.

3) Finished Bastion last week. Then promptly went and bought the soundtrack. "Build That Wall", "Mother, I'm Here", and "Setting Sail, Coming Home" are probably my favorite tracks.

4) Yarmond is playing Uncharted 2. neboat and I are having far too much fun asking him if Claudia Black has betrayed him yet. (Yes, no, yes, no, maybe? It's complicated!) Black is voicing, as far as I can tell, a treasure-hunter who may or may not be a double-agent for some terrorists and is possibly far cooler than the hero. Go on, be shocked. I dare you. (On the other hand, I had to pull up IMDB to prove one of her VA credits in the Mass Effect series because she sounds totally different.)

5) I seem to be writing another Guild game. This should not be shocking to anyone. Sometimes, I wonder why I don't just write gaming systems and attempt to indie publish them. My mom's been after me to try to turn this game-writing thing into an actual career.
ultranos: kino standing, staring ahead (contemplative)
Someone tell me it's a terrible idea to start the Mass Effect series over from New Game+ on ME1. (I'm currently refraining from checking Codex entries in ME2 and 3 because I had an insight into the ending, and really, I should be letting this go and not let myself obsess more. But goddamn, do I ever get like this when a story carves me up inside and leaves me thinking and hurting for days.) The fact that I'm enjoying playing multiplayer with my housemates does nothing to help the desire to play more. Again. *facepalm*

That I should go and goddamn finish my Dragon Age:Origins game that's almost at the end so I can play Awakening and DA2. Or, you know, any of the other games on my very long list. Like Kingdom Hearts: Birth By Sleep or Devil Survivor 2. Or Civ5. Actually, no, let's not play Civ5.

Because, the thing is, I realized that I do need to take time every day to play a game or something because it makes me happy. And maybe I'm not getting the most sleep ever, but it's restful enough and I'm not stressed out. I realized a month ago that I should say to hell with the idea that I should be spending my time "doing something else productive" instead of gaming when that "something else" just turns into "staring stupidly at the internet" because I don't actually have anything else I need to do. My brain finally got the memo that I'm not actually in school anymore, and no, playing a game isn't wasting time. That it's good and healthy for me to take time every day to do the thing that makes me happy because even an hour or two vastly improves my quality of life.
ultranos: figure walking into the foggy future (keep walking)
I finished Mass Effect 3 tonight, and with it, finished the Mass Effect series. I...I just...I'm going to own my Unpopular Internet Opinion.

There was no other ending that would have been correct. I am not only satisfied, but deeply affected. It's hitting me now, and I am trying not to cry. Not even Persona 4's ending affected me this deeply.

Maybe I'll write more later. Not now. Even though you'll probably never see this, thank you Bioware.

Goodbye, Commander Shepard. And thank you.
ultranos: daniel jackson stares at coffee mug and wonders "who drank my coffee?" (need caffeine; this is unacceptable)
neboat, yarmond, and I started playing around with multiplayer in ME3 (using Teamspeak, since it doesn't look like Origin has voice chat like Steam yet. Or we just like Teamspeak better), and it's actually a lot of fun. We all suck, but no one cares about dying a lot. And I get to get my headshot on with the sniper rifle, and neither care that I'm running away like a madwoman trying to find a sniper nest and get away from the enemies because I die real fast if I try melee. (I play Infiltrator.) On the other hand, now we all know why Commander Shepard gets asked to do all these crazy missions. If multiplayer has taught us anything, it's that no one else can do it. (One day, we might actually complete a mission on the easiest difficulty!)

Single-player, on the other hand, might be the game that breaks me. Commander Shepard has reached the point wherein it becomes abundantly clear she is in a tenday, not a three-day. Poor bastard. (I am really, really impressed by Bioware's animation and Hale's voice work right now.)
ultranos: Actual MIT hack of roadsign. "MASS AVE BRIDGE CLOSED / SUNDAY 04/22/07 6AM-3PM / TO APPEASE GODZILLA" (have you appeased godzilla today?)
(Subject line really has little to do with the post, other than somewhat celebrating Yuri's Night. Raise a toast!)

I spent last weekend at PAX East, which was very fun and very awesome. There are some really good indie games coming out soon, and some AAA titles, and basically, my wallet is going to once again be very sad very soon.

I possibly did a really stupid thing and started Mass Effect 3 about 2 days before the con. Thus spending a weekend in slight withdrawal, but mitigated by the fact that I was pretty much surrounded by gaming. The stupid part actually comes right now, because I am visiting my parents for 5 days, and thus am about 1600 miles from Bahamut. I'd be installing the game on my parents' laptop if it had a decent video card. As it is, I'm seriously in the withdrawal stage, mostly due to the "oh my god, what happens next?!" aspect. You know, like what happens when you're in the middle of a really good book or something. It's gotten to the point where I'm considering hitting up a bookstore for the tie-in novels. *facepalm* Yeah, I just might have a problem. Way to go, self.

The one good thing is that the withdrawal doesn't really hit unless I'm not doing anything. Since I'm only home for a short time, my parents have been monopolizing my time (as they should be! This is why I flew in, after all) and thus distracting me highly successfully. Seriously, if I were left alone for any significant period of time, I'd be climbing up the walls.
ultranos: kino and hermes on a coffee break (i need a coffee break)
I had an exercise in...frustration today that at one point left me wanting to murder EA, burn down their HQ, and salt the earth on which it stood.

It started innocently enough. )

Look, I am not a Steam apologist. I like the platform. I like it because it works and is the best currently out there that I've used. I would like it just as much if Steam had an actual competitor. (Things were great when AMD and Intel were hugely competitive.) But they don't, not really. And Origin is almost 10 years late to the party, does it worse than Steam, and acts like it's going to win this fight. I'm just not impressed by it. I wouldn't use it if I had a choice.

At least I have the game now.
ultranos: souji with his head stuck inside a tv (tv is eating my brain)
A Thought: Epic hilarity would occur if the crew of the SSV Normandy showed up on Atlantis in the Pegasus. Although I'm pretty sure Tali'Zorah would run circles around McKay, both out-doing and out-snarking him. (Tali'Zorah made this drone in a cave! With a box of scraps! No, seriously, she can do that shit. "Please Shepard; I'm a Quarian! Give me a hunk of scrap metal, a circuit board, and some element zero, and I'll have it making precision jumps!")

I'm really liking how all the races in the ME universe are distinct and nuanced. None of the major races seen are monolithic entities, and each have their own social issues, not to mention prejudice between the different species that exists on a spectrum. The minor races are a bit less nuanced, at least so far, but that's mostly because they're not heavily intertwined with the plot. So you only see a few examples.
ultranos: teal'c with tactical visor with text "better than that whiny farmboy", for reals. (recreating the trenchrun)
I finished Mass Effect on Saturday night at 4AM, because I just couldn't stop, and it wasn't like I had to be anywhere in the morning. So, 5 years after picking up the 360 controller for the first time, I finally restart it on the PC and blitz through it in a week. *facepalm* And by "blitz", I mean in the panzer sense, since I hit level cap before the final dungeon due to side-quest time-attack. Or something.

Amusingly, I had a hard time sleeping Saturday night because of "OMG, want to find out how ME2 starts". Which, in retrospect, was really kinda stupid of me. (neboat: "You know, you could have just...started it.") ME2 is much, much shinier than the first game. Oh my god, my f!Shepard has facial expressions now. Even better, facial expressions that often match the look on my face at the moment. I'm also liking the two hacking mechanics in 2 over the one in the original (either 360 or PC version). Maybe it's the EE training.

I'm actually rather surprised that my f!Shepard seems to be developing a character arc when I wasn't really looking. It will be interesting to see how this plays out. Possibly also heartbreaking. (I did not intend for the name I gave her to be in any way prophetic. AND YET.) Based on some of the hints I've been picking up from ME1 and so far into ME2, if I'm interpreting them correctly, I'm probably going to end up with having an Unpopular Fannish Opinion and liking the ending I get. *shrug* Worse things have happened.

On the super downside, my constant stressing of Bahamut has brought my attention to a serious problem. That would be that my power supply unit's fan has a cracked bearing, and the entire damn thing needs to be replaced. So Bahamut's getting it's first major upgrade (hopefully tomorrow), and since it's going to be a beefier PSU, I can start thinking about updating graphics cards. The current one's still working fine, but it might be getting about time to upgrade. It's been 3.5 years.
ultranos: lightning in freefall for a shot (girl's got a gun)
So TB prevailed upon me to actually go play the copies of Mass Effect (1 and 2) that I have had sitting in my Steam library for awhile. I started playing ME in 2007 on the XBox360. I got roughly 80% through the game then had to stop playing it due to hosage. Fast-forward to last year, when I try to pick it up again but realize I have no idea how the controls work anymore. And since I didn't own the 360 anyway, and the housemate who does no longer lives with us, I bought PC versions on Steam during some random sale. So at least now I own them. Hence, why I've started from scratch.

Anyway, probably surprising no one who knows me, I am playing as FemShep, and there'd been something itching in the back of my brain. I knew the VA is Jennifer Hale, who's done a lot of video game voice work (Prier from La Pucelle Tactics, Fall-from-Grace from Planescape: Torment, Samus Aran from Metroid Prime, among many other roles). I looked her up on IMDB and then I found my answer. Hale was also the VA for Ivy from Where on Earth is Carmen Sandiego? and Jessie Bannon on The Real Adventures of Johnny Quest.

Also known as the teenagers I wanted to be when I was 10, and pretty much shaped my childhood. (Ivy grew up to become Commander fucking Shepard. Yes. This makes perfect sense in my head. I DON'T CARE.)


ultranos: cecilia adelhyde holding spell book (Default)

Memoranda from the Usual Suspects

Media List:

Currently Watching:
-- Supergirl(hiatus)
--Pitch (hiatus)

Currently Playing:
--[null] (PS3)
--[null] (PS2)
--Fire Emblem: Awakening (3DS)
--[null] (PSP)
--[null] (XBox360)
--Endless Legend (PC)
--Fallout: New Vegas (PC)

Currently Reading:


-The Rook, Daniel O'Malley
-Fortune's Rising, Sara King

-Ratf**ked: The True Story Behind the Secret Plan to Steal America's Democracy, David Daley


"So she's good cop, he's bad cop, you're morally-questionable cop, and I'm set-things-on-fire cop."

"Sounds about right."


"WARNING: When attempting to be clever, make sure you not actually just being stupid."


"Did you remember to sacrifice the goat before burning the ISO to the DVD-R?"

"Crap! Um, I've got a charred piece of meat here."

"That's called a steak. That's dinner. What about the sacrifices?"


"I escape through quantum-tunneling. What do I need to roll for that?"


"Why is it called a 'Monkeylord'?"

"Because it looks like a spider."


"I have a moral objection to this problem. It implies microwaving a steak."


"Did you eat the crazy cookies this morning?"


"The GPU goes 4 by 4, hurrah, hurrah."

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